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Vocabulary gap

Yesterday night I was hurring on the streets of Cluj. I passed by one of my bestfriends without noticing him. :)

Luckiliy he called me. Even more luckiliy he invitied me to the theatre.

What I remarked was not the exeptional play, script and acting, but something else. I mean of course I enjoyed the play. Still after it ended I realized how limited my vocabulary is.

While I was listening I didn't hear once the same word. All of them were synonyms of the other words. And it was a delight. Everything flowed so wonderfully on the stage. It was like a words symphony. It kept you focused. It kept you linked to everything.

Well... i just added a new point on my to improve list...

Decisions. Full stop

Enjoy the road. Feel life. Let it get out out of your pores. Inspire it. Feel it's magic. It's beauty. Then spread it all around a thousand times more intense. This the summary of the decision process that I was passing through when I decided to apply for this scholarship.

A few days ago I actually found out that I got it. It was a shock, as I was starting to see my life already going on and Japan was not on the list.

I will deffinetly try to do the best from my decision. It was a tuff one as I had to choose from 4 different scenarios. I hope that The One gave me the wiseness to make the best decision when I had to take it. While I was decding I had to take into consideration the follwing:

• a job at an amazing company in Romania, with a Bachelor degree from Romania, followed by an abroad Master in Finance and one in International Development Economics and after that a ph.d.
• VicePresident for AIESEC Cluj, having beside me my friends and family, and a bachelor in Romania, followed afterwards by a job and the opening of an NGO
• 1 year in Peru, from the beging of August 2006 to June 2007, with a future very much similar to the ones at the previous 2 points
• 5 years in Japan, studying there... with the possibility of combining the previous 3 points or having a completly different possibility, or who knows... maybe possibilities.

While I was deciding I remembered one of my friend's question: do I really need this? Good question with a perfect timing. Answer: unknown. Time will tell. The decisions that I will take at those little turning points will have the final say. I say this because, I belive that according to what we want to belive we can bring up very suitable arguments for both sides. It just depends on which of the sides you "feel" or "think" you are in this moment.

A good decision is made up from all those little decision that follow afterwards the bigger crossroad.

The ones mentioned above combined with what I am and what I want to give back to the world made me decide: I chose Japan.

I belive in a world where the environment for people to find the serenity, the interior calm, balance and happiness is ubicous. The goosebumps. The Beauty of the world. And most importantly for them to make it grow.

Love. Dedication. Innovation.Develop. The words that I live. They made my decsion. They and my need to have the whole word as my home and my search for my domicile. That connection. The people that I still need to connect with. That unique and strong connection. The knowledge. The strectch. The tolerance and fast adaptabilty. The prioritization process, focus and the group communication that need leveraging.

Yes, I am going to Japan. I am still in shock. I have a lot of butterflies in my stomack. I am a bit scared. A normal feeling given the situation. Unknown road. Till a certain point. The point where I will see again a clear horizon. Well what do you know... I just caught the first glimpse of it:). Remarcable shot:D

This uncertainty is created by some of the society's frames. I was wondering if I am going back in time instead of moving forward. My friends are graduating. They are getting hired. Some open(ed) their companies or NGOs. Some already got married.

But I am not moving backwards. I am going forward. Closer to my dedication. Closer to the type of life that I belive into.